What confused and conflicted heart doth beat in me

What confused and conflicted heart doth beat in me
All seems dull and void of joy and happiness
How oft in stillness, I grow impatient and proud
I wrap myself in this angry shroud
This melancholy

This tension in me doth take its toll
It increases with every passing breath
More and more it steals from me
The life I once loved

Sorrow slowly settles in
And I wait for the dark of night
To cover me in my sin
Tis the only comfort I find within

Though all tis folly
To think I remain unseen
The thought tis pleasant
I wish at times in this place
None would remain to toil with me

Yet tis pride in me that truly desires release
And it brings with it no profound peace
Oh what joy can be found in such a wretched soul
Is there but hope that remains for such as me
What favor could one find
When one is but near to losing all sanity of mind

Is there one who would share this pain
Is there one who might remove such a burden
It bares deep upon me
The weight of it is too much to bear
And all strength in me is gone

What help can come to me
What life remains
Seems worthless and wasted

Is there but a chance
That this broken heart may ever
Be whole again

The love of man
Is selfish and deceitful
It abuses and confuses
To satisfy its own desires

Tis more of lust than love
It rapes what worth remains
It steals and stains
And what remains is refuse and rot
And all but forgot

Yet there is one
Who remains
Who can heal
And restore

One who loves perfectly
And unselfishly
His love is true
His love is for all
Who cry out in shame
In the midst of the brokenness and pain
They call upon His name

In the darkest of night
In the greatest peril of the fight
There remains this one
This resurrected Son of God
Tis He who bore all sin
Found in the world of men

And He alone can free one
From these chains
Freedom is found
In He
Who has set the captives free
For all eternity!

-Joshua Lee Foist