Climbing the Heights

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Lost in the rain dance

I got lost in the rain dance 
Rather than the rain
I was caught up in the experience
But had nothing to gain

My whole of existence
Was wrapped in its splendor
Yet then I remembered
The reason for this

The dance 
The smooth kiss of love
All of it disguised
By the great overture

And the rain never came
The fog in my mind
Did find no moisture
At all

For the rain
Had long been spent
And now the desert
Of resentment settled in

How easily to be lost
In the mirage of it's making
The imagined oasis
Had no fact or basis 

No reason to exist
For all my efforts
Had been spent
On this one event

Now I repent me
And see the joy
In the simple rain
To but cool and cleanse 

The joy of another
Without any other
Expectation to fill
No need to thrill

Only the present
Tis more than enough
Yet I forgot the stuff 
Of what friendship
Is made

I forbade my heart
To look simply 
To that which is best 
And so lost it all
In my zest

Maybe again
On another approaching
Wind shall I find
Another in kind

But cautious
To not be lost
In the preparation
For there lies destruction
And desolation 

Simply to be
Love and love
Alone tis more
Than the greatest 
Of storms

Can weather 
Them all with
Only itself 

-Joshua Lee Foist

The me beside myself

The me beside myself
When I am no more 
Well aware
That someone's there

And if I even care 
My thoughts it seems
Turn inward
Playing my own

Disception of what
I thought should be
Yet all the while
Complacency

Takes residency here
And I am once more
Subdued in idle
Thinking

Where did I once
Know the words to speak
To say the things I feel
How can I connect again

Even when it hurts
To say what in me
Must be said
To live the life
That's all but dead

Still surfacing
In silence
The cursing
Deep within

Why this
Why am I here
What do you expect 
Of me

We may not see
The same defect
Infect our minds
With our own

Wreck in me
The rotting waste
Whose taste is for
Itself 

Open me 
To clearly see
The hurt in
Someone else

And not
Defend
My own
Disdain

But work
To make
Amends

For only there
Can love connect 
And hope beyond
Perfect

The broken
With the broken
Heart and make 
The broken whole

-Joshua Lee Foist

Are you still listening

Are you still listening
To the me beside myself
To the me that no one else sees
Beside me

You're always beside me
When I hide me away
And I have not words to say

For whose approval am I seeking 
Who's desires am I longing for
Where do I find my belonging 

When all that's said 
Is not said 
I long to be real
To feel
To heal

Am I but third best
Cannot I this reside to believe
Show me a love I know
Not of myself but comes from you alone

And help me to speak
With words of truth
That breathe proof
Of what I think

So help me
That I may not
Remove

From this scene
That I am in
But presently be
Here and now
Without fear

-Joshua Lee Foist

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Have thy way with me

Have thy way with me
Open mine eyes that they may see
Surrender all my insecurity
And may thy will be done in me

For all within that would cloud my mind
Would steal my joy and darkness find
So shine thy light expose my fear
And cause thy grace to flutter near

Breathe in me thy bountiful courage
Carry me and do not discourage
For oft have I inward sought
Where lies disguise the truth

Be thou my one desire
And when this goal
I do aquire
Then come

And fill my troubled heart
With earthly love
That's blessed from above
Grant this hope

In me which is fleeting
That though this frail heart
May quake within
For thy sake grant it me
Again

For that which is good
And pleasing to thee
May it yet be found
In time for me

And though I know
Not the day it come
I pray it too may draw
Me nearer to you

For in its lesson find
A picture of thy love in kind
For earthly joys are but
An eloquent breeze

Which warms and cools
A season or more
Until their light
Goes out

Yet for thy light
Which always remains
May it ever burn bright
And envelope my veins

That life eternal in it move
And spread the truth
And love it prove

-Joshua Lee Foist

Friday, February 14, 2014

Till all shall cease to be

Till all shall cease to be
As sand upon sand
Sifts out upon
The shimmering sea

Here no more
To come again
Oh fleeting fragrance
Of existence

Drink deep of the fountain of life
That it may calm thy sorrow and strife
Rest not in the things of earth
But look above to find thy worth 

Whether a twinkle in time
Know thee an earthly love or not
May thy hope rest secure
In that which is pure

And not fleeting
Thy favor found 
In thy faithful friend 
And savior 

From the clouds of doubt
Thy warmth to calm the cool night
Take flight in thy lover's sight
For dawns the day begone the night

When thy joy is made complete
In Him who formed 
Thy frail figure
And fashioned it's perfection 

For thy image
Reflects His own
And in Him
Art thou never
Alone

Joshua Lee Foist

Saturday, February 8, 2014

Be free oh fear within me be

Be free oh fear within me be
For I cannot see what ere surrounds
Thy cords have long enshrouded me
And clouded have become my eyes to see

Where despair have thy deadened me
To life for which I've hoped to live
Yet time hath torn from me
The scorn now wrenches me

Awake oh mind
Be not silent
For I would hear
Thy cry

I will not deny
Thy gaping wound
Would hear thy voice
And find thyself

Oh come to me
That which fails to live
Oh live that way in me
That yearns to be

For fear hath long
Clung at me
And closed in
The walls
Diplomacy

Thy heart
It hurts inside of thee
Let out thy pain
And live again

No stain concealed
No more revealed
Shall wipe thee
From acceptance
Come

Oh hope that strives
Within to be
Be free and walk
Thy way with me

Let not thy doubts
Dissolve thy joy
Employ thy courage
And make it strong

For thy heart's song
Is thy own tune
And just as radiant
As all beside

So humble thyself
And let go thy pride
Do not hide this hope
In me confide

For I alone
Hath borne
Thy pain

I know thy sorrow
Hath borne it all
Yet here and now
The moment waits

Wait not
Ere longer
For here it lies
All moments
Within and out
Disguise

Thy eyes look full
And take control
Surrender will
And heart
Be full

Thy own self
Art good enough
For I did form thee
Of myself

And none
Did form
As less than
Excelent

So now find joy
In this
And no more
Be thou
Remiss

Thy own significance
Is not found in others
Or accomplished things

Thy all in all
Is found
In thy artists
Hand

For only He
Made thee
What thou
Wouldst be

So now you see
Now go be free
And find thyself
Thy soul in me

-Joshua Lee Foist

Saturday, February 1, 2014

How do I connect

How do I connect
When ere the vein 
In me infect 
The soul to win

So I begin begin begin
My story here it is
With lifted eye

And raised brow
Or slide of hand
To fall how shall I
Find without within

Out of my mind
Out of thy gaze
The haze of that
I cannot praise 

The glazed fear
That somehow 
Lost the words
In prayer

Surrender them
Remember them
No more must I
Adore in them

How now must I 
Engage with them
When all I know
Is praise of them

So now my idol
Gaze again
Cannot enough
To see within

How must I here begin
How must I start anew
If I connect how shall
I then without this

Festering fear
Somehow I have 
Again become
The thing I longed

To cast aside
So now give me
The eyes to see
And ere the mind

Of mystery
And love that
Seek not of it's own
But longs to bring

A pilgrim home
No more alone
No more deny
Thy love shall be

The true connection
To heal the heart
And seal the vein
No more shall it betray 

Joshua Lee Foist

It seems a lifetime ago

It seems a lifetime ago
As the rails cross the lane
Where once were we
Now its passing a mystery

The feelings then
The hope of something
New the season then
Delight of what was

Yet now if ever
Seems so far away
So now their passing
From January to May

From winter to spring
So sing the dreams
Of yesteryear
When the joy 

Of then 
Did set its heart
On when we
The chemistry

Depart
Now no more
Apart in matters
Of heart

Find we
Alone
Yet not

For in our doubts
And fears find we
The questions still
They wander in

But now this rest
Doth bring us round
To ground our hearts
And minds to you

You who formed us
You who know us
You who taught
Our souls to sing

And ere we find frail love
A fling shall surely if
We seek thee true
Find our one and only

Need we ere forget
And throw our hands
Up to the sky
Will not deny

Us of thy love
Most perfect
And complete
Tis all we ever 
Need

Joshua Lee Foist