I was wide-eyed with anticipation

I was wide-eyed with anticipation
My heart did long with great expectation
For what might come of this destination
In this time of brief association

What could be
What uncharted course
Could be found upon this sea
All was possible

So soft and sweet
Was the touch
That held so much
Whom might I meet

So many prospects of fond imagination
All were candidates by some approximation
Yet I was naive in my desire
In my hope for some friendship to acquire

Too much had I staked
On this short excursion
And sunk deep
In its perversion

To give into this dream
And invest everything
On the chance
Of once found romance

Tis easier now
When removed
From its current
To see it for what it was

The desire was not in itself at fault
But rather the idea
Which I did exalt
To too high a position

I lost a sense of reality
In my flawed morality
This was my idol of satisfaction
Which could never be found
In some mere attraction

Oh how long think I
Must it be until I will see
The truth for what it really is
It remains unchanged

All the while still I am submerged
In a facade of frail diversion
Hoping to satisfy
What seems so long and void

Yet truly avoiding the matter of the heart
Its longing cannot be denied
For it is justified
From birth it has been

Yet sin has skewed its perspective
And drawn it away
To seek after a thing
A mere distraction
That brings short lived satisfaction

Oh take me away
From this endless play
From this false perception
Help me to see in truth
Its deception

Though I oft but fail
May your will in me prevail
That I may once more
Learn to adore
The Lord of the sea and sky

May I learn to glorify
Him who did love me
Amidst all my complacency
To the very end

May I seek after him
Who is both father and friend
For only he breathes life
Into that which was once dead
And gives it a hope instead

Whose foundation is secure
In that which is pure
And completely satisfies

For whether in life
One may find another
To share with it a season
There is still a reason to rejoice

For all great works once begun
Are completed in him
Who knew no sin
Yet bore it all
That we might know him
And find all we ere desire
Or hope or require
For all the ages to come
In God's one and only son

-Joshua Lee Foist