Now I retire once more to my restless mind

Now I retire once more to my restless mind
And find I need more to repent
Of oft my discontent
For why I am
This way

As spring comes
And winter winds blow
The ice that chills
And warmth that melts away

The restless resentment
That oft may lodge in me
May it soften and soothe
And courage in me prove

To find my joy in you
Who know my every need
Before I plead
That thou should grant it me

Oh joy may I rest secure in thee
Sweet savior and not be lost
In fleeting fantasy
Or hope of requisite romanticy

The truth is far more compelling
And jarring though not acquired in taste
It transforms that which is waste
And gives it confidence

For in its acceptance
Find repentance and forgiveness
Full to shed the doubts and deceit
That oft may trip its feet

And in acceptance all
That ere may it seek
For there at last surrender
Doth bring a welcome change

And rest to find amidst the weary way
For long the road upon the day
When at last to find
A lodge along the path

For peace
Grants much release
From all that may
Be built upon
A heavy heart

So melt away
All the doubt
And fear
And come

Draw me near
To thee
And rest
Upon thee

Oh comfort
Secure
To trust in thee
Alone

Life
And breath
Are here
And full
Complete

No more
The clouds
Of longing
Linger

Thy voice
Calms the winds
That whistle within
And welcome
Home

This heart
That long hath sought
Though knew the way not

And at last did find
When thy gate keeper
Didst draw this one near

No more rejected
But by thee perfected
And made whole

-Joshua Lee Foist