Ah, to reminisce upon this

Ah, to reminisce upon this
This quiet moment
To ponder and to pray
Upon rays of the early day

Morning has broke
Yet sorrow in me doth choke
As I gasp in the splendor
Yet not oft enough do I surrender

So I remain
As I am in this panic
Frozen in time
Steadily engaging my crime

All too often to return
How I yearn to grow
To change
To know what purpose
Lies ahead

But just a glance
A moment from this
Could be sorrow or bliss
Must it all be based on
The end result

If not all joy
Will I revolt
And engage my fancy
My facade
My only god

So caught up
In this trance
Lost in the emotion
Drunk on the latest truth

But satisfaction
Is a season
A destination
Without reason

And this too in time
Will pass
All alas is gone
For a moment
Of bliss

All at once again
I reminisce
And remember this
Lost in sin
It beckons me in

Into its chambers
Of darkness
And pain
Where I am ravaged again
And thrown out
Without remorse

So has it taken its course
Within me
But I cannot remain here
This faint flicker
Of hope

Deep down I know it well
It remains
It reminds me
Of a joy I once knew

A longing I had
For you
Will such a hope
A fervency
Renew

I pray it will
That despite
All betrayal
In me
Your love will
Prevail

And somehow
It will release
From me this pain
That I may find
Joy again
In you

-Joshua Lee Foist